Nocturnal

Suddenly I have not been able to sleep at night. Its is currently 2:50 am and Im still wide awake. Then I am tired all day after sleeping til noon or longer. Today or I guess it would be yesterday I woke up at noon and then took a 2 hour nap from 2 to 4. Ugh. ITs frustrating. I guess getting over my lazy streak is going to be harder than I thought. The internet has a big thing to do with that as well. I found a website that has pregnancy forums and have spent the past several hours on them reading pointless crap and people who are just down right rude to eachother. I guess thats what happens when you get a bunch of hormonal pregnant people in a message board.

I also no longer want to sleep in our bed. I prefer the couch yet its not nearly as comfortable and I wake up quite frequently. I just dont know what it is. I have this weird aversion to the bed. It may be that I dont want Jason touching me when Im sleeping or hardly at all when Im awake. I just dont want to be all hugged all over and such. Its frustrating him and I feel bad but I dont know why its this way but it is. 

I got my medicaid cards. Whoot. One less thing to worry about now. Im really glad I got them so fast since they said it can take up to 30 days to process but it took 2 days after I got them all the verifications they needed. On the pregnancy forums I had read about many girls having to wait months to be approved so I was a little worried that would happen and with my next appointment being on the 7th of May I was really worried since I will have no insurance after the 30 of the this month. But everything worked out and Im so glad it did. :D

Well I think Im going to retire to my lovely couch now with my naughty cat and try to sleep. 

Emotional

The past few days I've been tired and not feeling the greatest. I have wanted nothing but to just lay around and rest. Then it takes all my might to get up off the couch and get ready for work, the whole 2 shifts I had this week. In the past 2 months I haven't done a whole lot around the house since I've been so exhausted but now I just feel lazy and I know Jason hates it. He is working a ton and going to school full time and I can't even manage to get the laundry done, do dishes or clean the house. On to the dishes...it makes me sick to do them...with this new heightened sense of smell I have they are quite stinky. The laundry...it seems like every time I get the urge to do it something goes wrong. Our apartment has issues and something is broken between upstairs and downstairs and it leaks in the kitchen downstairs and alas we are stuck in the middle. But while this leaking goes on. We can't run the water in the kitchen or do laundry. Which happened today right when we were going to start both! Ugh great timing. It happens about every week and a half it seems like. I wish they would fix it because its rather annoying but they can't seem to find where the leak is coming from exactly. 

I had an awful migraine on monday and tuesday and i was completely miserable. Jason went and bought Tylenol on his way home from work on monday night not even a half hour after taking it I was in the bathroom losing my dinner. Then I went to bed and woke up tuesday and it was even worse. We called the doctor, jason called since it hurt my head to hear people talk through the phone, the nurse took the message and said he'd call back when he was done with his current patient. I was thinking okay we'll hear back  within a half hour. An hour goes by and nothing so Jason calls back to get an update of when exactly he's going to call then an hour after that the doctor called. He was a lifesaver and said I could take excedrin for migraines. thank goodness something that might work. He also said to drink plenty of fluids. So I spent the rest of my day downing water and resting. It went away within an hour of taking the excedrin and my appetite was back. Every time I get a migraine my appetite completely disappears and i get nauseas. I was glad that I was finally able to eat because I wanted to not because I had to. 

Now onto the emotional part. I am now crying at the drop of a hat, well it seems like it anyway. On wednesday I went to turn in my verifications for state insurance and they were so rude that I went to visit Jason at work and broke down in the middle of the store. Then today I got a letter saying I was denied because I hadn't completed the process of the application....When thats what I went and did wednesday. The letter was mailed yesterday. I cried for nearly a half hour about it. Of course they are closed until monday I can't see if the letter was really just an automatic letter or if I'm really denied. Ugh....rather frustrating

Also another frustrating thing is work cut my hours when I had asked for more hours because I need them. I had 11 hours this week....was supposed to anyway and on monday my manager called and cut  4 hours from my schedule this week and this next week I have one shift thats 4 hours and thats it. So much for getting hours. Job searching is so frustrating right now being 11 weeks pregnant and I don't know how exactly to tell people that Im pregnant and people don't really want to hire you knowing that in 6 months you wont be able to work for at least 6 weeks and you may not come back at all.  Also with the way I've been feeling I don't want to work full time since I get worn out so easily lately. Ive applied at multiple banks back in february and have had 3 interviews denied for 2 of them. I'm getting to the point of giving up. Applying at like 10 to 15 banks and getting emails back saying that I don't meet the qualifications when I meet all of the qualifications online is really frustrating and makes you lose faith. This week I'm going to try to kick this lazy streak and get our apartment clean and also job search. 

Thats  the update for now.