40 weeks 4 days

4 days overdue.. ARG.
My dr is out of town for the week so I had to see a different dr today and boy did I hate him.
He was so quick and didn't seem to care about my well being at all. His nurse is weird and asks if it burns when I urinate...um no, never. I would tell you if it did. My nurse always just asks if the baby's moving, if I've had any bleeding, or contractions. I prefer those questions. She checked my bp. 120/80 Lowest its been in weeks. Anyway the dr came in measured my belly 38 cm.. I think thats do to her finally being locked and loaded, he checked her heartbeat really fast, it was at 140 which is good. Then he checked my cervix. One centimeter dilated...freaking finally. Ive been checked at 36 weeks..nothing...37 weeks...nothing...38 weeks I didnt feel good so I didn't get checked...39 weeks...nothing. then today 40 weeks. bam 1 cm. Finally some progress. I've been kinda crampy...gas type cramps all day so I figured something had changed. She is also much lower today than yesterday. Immediately after he checked me he asked if I wanted to be induced. I responded with not really. (I dont want my body pumped with artificial hormones, my dr said the body's made to do this let it figure itself out...he said this last week) Anyway he went on with how bad things can start happening after 41 weeks and he wouldn't suggest staying pregnant over the weekend. I had an appt with my dr set for monday the 17th. I failed to mention this to the jerky dr who was forcing induction on me. My dr seemed perfectly fine with letting me go over and talking about what we can do on monday when hes back. I feel like I was forced into being induced. My induction is set for Friday night at 830 pm. They will start with the thinning/dilating meds...not sure if they will use cervadil or cytotec(i think thats what its called) or something else. those are the only 2 I know of. Then Saturday morning they will start with pitocin if needed. I really dont want pitocin. I really didn't want to be induced! I have 3 more days to get labor going on my own. There is a storm at the moment maybe the barometric pressure will do something, theres a full moon on thursday night maybe that will do something. I plan on doing a ton of walking the next couple days that should help as well.

I really wanted my dr to deliver the baby..ive been going to him for 9 months and completely comfortable with him. The dr that will be there for the induction is a different one than I saw today and hopefully hes not as jerky. I feel like the girl on "Knocked Up" when she goes into labor and her dr isn't there for the delivery LOL. I wanna freak out. If I make it to saturday I will have then met every dr in the office. Whoo great for me..Not I want my dr!!!!

The more I sit and ponder this induction business the more emotional I get. I was pretty okay with it when we left the office and now that Im home alone I want nothing to do with it and I want to cry. UGH..why is it this week that my dr has to be out of town.